Why I just cannot be as good as others:( why?:( why others can do so well in their studies and balance their relationship so well but I can't :( I really tried my best in studying to make it better but there's always something that I won do well:( then relationship, I always want him to accompny me but I always forget or dun Noe that he's already very tired after working so long:( he won say out as he always said "since I say come down I will come and help you de" I Noe that he's tired but sometimes I really want him to accompany me awhile also can:( I just need him to be by my side... Sometimes when I want cry, I want him to be there to prevent or stop me from crying... Have I really become the selfish Joanne? I hope not to:( I dun wan to be that:(

Today may not be that good day.. evening still ok.. But when reach at night, I started to feel that I'm selfish.. Sorry dear:( I didn noe that by asking you to come down accompany me study will make you be that tired:( If I noe after work, you are tired, I rather take my sentence back for asking you to come down... Come out end up make you sleep late:( If i noe if you didn come down you will be sleeping early for tml work, then i sure won ask you come down.. Sorry my dear...:(

Tml 2 presentations going on for me.. Yeaterday presentation teacher say not bad.. So i just hope can score well for all the presentation and help to pull my marks up..

Who can I say all this to?

Today then i realize that only 3 ppl fail more than 3 modules out of 6:( and I was stupidly 1 of them la:( i had been asking myself... Why other pp can pass all and with good result but when I can't get or do that:( when as usual when enter the exam hall, I will be nervous and then forget everything:( and then eventually fail again:( this time also no different:( sometimes I really feel very weak and hate that... My friends all can do well why me again? :( secondary sch like tat now even in poly also like that:( sometimes I really am stress with sch work.. But who can I say to????:( my family? I dun wan cause I dun wan them to worry about me... Friends?? I dunno.. They are also busy with their own work.. Last person will be my stead.. He??? I did tell him but how many times can I tell him that I'm "tired"?? So how??? Who can i say this to??? No one except me myself ba:( how can I tell my friends and him about this when I dun wan them to see the stupid weak and useless of me... They normally see me happy and cheerful so I won let anyone to see the other side including him.. It will not be so responsible if I drag others to be so call moody with me...

Tired of so many project:( all going to present in next week:( i going to get burst if everything going to crush together again:( HELP ME!!!! HELP ME!!! I'm reaaly very tired:(

counting down the no. of days left to ns....

Some ppl go ns some still waiting to go in.. It's good for a guy to in as when come out, they may be a different person.. But for their stead, i dun noe about others.. I just dun wan him to go in:( Not only that, it's a challenge for a couple as it's the time where most couple will break up:( I believe in our relationship but just that i really dun like:( though when he go in that time, we can go with him for the first day but sad that day i maybe having my attachment:( HOW? HOW? HOW? :(

2 months 21 days......