Very long didn't update Liao:) nth much also.. Happy to have him around with me even though he's in army:) thanks for having him as my pig pig stead ^^

Book out lo:)

Hey, today he book out:) but is evening out de.. still better than none...:) Best is that out of 112 ppl only 7 can go out today.. so thanks for been one of them:) Tml can see you again:)

13 months lo:)

Happy 13 months anniversary to you pig pig:) Thanks for accompany me walk to our 13 montyhs:) Now we still have 23 months to go to ur 3 years:) 59 months to the promise you given to me from the very first day of our relationship:) Though today you can't be by my side celebrating it, but nvm.. I will wait for your msg and call at night when you free:) Today hope you inside not that tiring as yesterday:( I want talk to you a bit longer i want hear your voice... Be guai guai then maybe friday can come out again:) No matter what, thnaks for your very first wishing msg in the morning:)

today book in...

This week finally wait till he book out le..:) Best is that is on the fri 12.35pm book out:) The sad thing is that i got to go work till 9 then can end:( but he still came down to accompany me have lunch and also to return his uniform.. Sat morning work till 2 then go home and he accompany me for the whole day liao:) But the thing I'm sad of is that he's coughing.. He cough till quite bad:( Lucky he still feel better after eating medicine and have a small rest:) Today morning as usual he go have his little food service and earn some small tips for himself:) After that go my house rest awhile then go his house for 2 small meals with his parents before sending him off to the "school" again.. SO happy at least still can get to be with him half a day and hear no cough from him also:) Sad is that have to send him in again:( But at least this time won be as bad as the first day sending him in.. Now hope he take care and guai guai fri or sat will be out again.. and i will be there waiting for his call and msg:)

Finally left 1 day:)

After waiting for so long, i finally get to wait till he book out:) but i'm working tml so maybe won be able to see him first till sat:( sad lor.. Sometimes think back to the day when he left for ns i will still feel sad:( Till now i still see the pic of him leaving us:( It's so clearly in my mind:( The tears in my eyes and his mum eyes... can't control it when i dun even have the dare to even make myself look at him after finish lunch.. No energy to even speak to him when leaving.. cause i noe if i talk i will loss total control over my tears..:(

2 days left:)

Today still quite ok.. As usual, he eat finish his supper then call:) Even if only awhile i also dun mind just want him to be safe and healthy:) However, he break the healthy:( Till now, he's still coughing:( I want him to hurry recover from his cough, i dun wan him to continue get sick:( Please take care:( You promise me you will take of yourself de, and now this is the result i get from you when not even 2 weeks:(

3 days left:=)

After waiting for so long, i finally left 3 days to go only:) Friday book out not sat:) even best lor:) I only want him to go sleep when he book out:) tml 4 plus he have to wake liao:( i noe its hard but i really dun wan him to tired himself:(

7 days left::)

Today morning he msg me at 10 plus, but i didn the tone:( nvm he's good can liao:) then about 5 pus he rely my msg.. As i had msg him at 4 plus to tell him that i go out swimming with my mum, my bro and his stead.. and at 5 plus he also say he's free, but now still haven recieve any call or msg after 7.15pm:( guess today should be no call or maybe even no msg:( time is getting later and later when he use the phone and the no. of hours he sleep is also getting shorter and shorter... now i feel like sleeping but haven recieve anything yet, so can't really say dun wait for him when i miss him a lot alresdy:( now then come bsck:( today going to late sleep again:(

8 days left:)

5 days past Liao:) and thank you for letting him to fine inside:) now waiting for call again:) then can go have a good sleep:) today also the day of my result, and thanks goodness I pass all the modules:) just with a low GPA:( but can go second semester good liao:) this time de result he's by my side:( the last time he is and I can call him when my result is out:) today de leh, have to wait till at night then can call:(

9 days left..

Fourth day liao...:) today quite late then msg, then at the beginning say cannot call so a bit sad:( but at 11.28pm he called and say that still got time so can call awile:) so I'm happy and that as long as he's fine inside then if I can't get to call him, at least I still noe he's ok:) Cause if I Noe he's doing fine then at least won be that worry liao:)

3 days going to past:) 10 days left to 9 oct. Today i bit better:) 2 plus, 3 and 8 plus can msg me liao:) Eventhoughi didn really rely back for the 2 and 3 plus de msg, but nvm. cause at least i still noe that he's still ok inside:) sometimes really have to thank him for being healthy and happy always:) now if i really miss my pig pig, i just either see our pic or msg and of course have his jacket on:) now wait for his call at 9 plus or 10:)

Second day of his ns going to past:) faster go faster end also:) today whole day till now still haven recieve anything from him:( Yeaterday at least still can get to msg with him in the evening at 7 plus.. but today nth:( now i hope to get his call asap:( Is it i think him too much or what? i miss him when i think of him..:( but i still have to wait for 7 months for him to graduate from the army.. :(

12 days left:)

Today, finally the day i hate the most has come.. Yesterday went over to stay overnight, so that this morning can go out together, but then i fail to control my tears:( i cried when i was to leave the place, to leave his side for a few weeks.. i will be worry as i dun noe how will he be when he's inside.. I noe he will take care of himself de.. but i just still dun ease the worry in me..:( now i just hope 9 oct faster come.. The first book out:)

Tml will be my worst day of my life..:( as morning have to send him in for ns then afternoon still need to go for attachment:( so 2 different feeling I will have for tml and worst is that have to force it out:( cannot be too sad or worry in front of him.. Afternoon still have to have a normal feeling:( today for more than 2 times, I'm controlling my tears from coming out:( I Noe I am weak, but I really dun like the feeling of been separated with him:( But I promise myself that never will I let my stead sees me in tears so never will i unless i really cannot control:( I want time to stop when i am with him:)

Today just finish the aap paper, but sad to say that i really have not much confident in the paper :( I dun noe why i dun remember the ans even though lecture got give us the hints for the paper:( The past 2 paper still not that bad but this paper i dun noe:( Now i just hope to get to the second semester and study all the new module.. Please let me go...

next thurs is the start of exam:( this is going to take me to hell... term 1 result like shit.. in order to save the GPA i must score quite well de result.. but this really going to kill me... all biology and all the words so difficult to spell and understand:( now can't affort to fail any single module out of the 6:( Worst is that 1 month later he's going for ns and i'm having attachment...:( Plaese let me change my shift to afternoon.. now have to clear this exam then attachment.. 1 years 10 months fatser pass:)

Why I just cannot be as good as others:( why?:( why others can do so well in their studies and balance their relationship so well but I can't :( I really tried my best in studying to make it better but there's always something that I won do well:( then relationship, I always want him to accompny me but I always forget or dun Noe that he's already very tired after working so long:( he won say out as he always said "since I say come down I will come and help you de" I Noe that he's tired but sometimes I really want him to accompany me awhile also can:( I just need him to be by my side... Sometimes when I want cry, I want him to be there to prevent or stop me from crying... Have I really become the selfish Joanne? I hope not to:( I dun wan to be that:(

Today may not be that good day.. evening still ok.. But when reach at night, I started to feel that I'm selfish.. Sorry dear:( I didn noe that by asking you to come down accompany me study will make you be that tired:( If I noe after work, you are tired, I rather take my sentence back for asking you to come down... Come out end up make you sleep late:( If i noe if you didn come down you will be sleeping early for tml work, then i sure won ask you come down.. Sorry my dear...:(

Tml 2 presentations going on for me.. Yeaterday presentation teacher say not bad.. So i just hope can score well for all the presentation and help to pull my marks up..

Who can I say all this to?

Today then i realize that only 3 ppl fail more than 3 modules out of 6:( and I was stupidly 1 of them la:( i had been asking myself... Why other pp can pass all and with good result but when I can't get or do that:( when as usual when enter the exam hall, I will be nervous and then forget everything:( and then eventually fail again:( this time also no different:( sometimes I really feel very weak and hate that... My friends all can do well why me again? :( secondary sch like tat now even in poly also like that:( sometimes I really am stress with sch work.. But who can I say to????:( my family? I dun wan cause I dun wan them to worry about me... Friends?? I dunno.. They are also busy with their own work.. Last person will be my stead.. He??? I did tell him but how many times can I tell him that I'm "tired"?? So how??? Who can i say this to??? No one except me myself ba:( how can I tell my friends and him about this when I dun wan them to see the stupid weak and useless of me... They normally see me happy and cheerful so I won let anyone to see the other side including him.. It will not be so responsible if I drag others to be so call moody with me...

Tired of so many project:( all going to present in next week:( i going to get burst if everything going to crush together again:( HELP ME!!!! HELP ME!!! I'm reaaly very tired:(

counting down the no. of days left to ns....

Some ppl go ns some still waiting to go in.. It's good for a guy to in as when come out, they may be a different person.. But for their stead, i dun noe about others.. I just dun wan him to go in:( Not only that, it's a challenge for a couple as it's the time where most couple will break up:( I believe in our relationship but just that i really dun like:( though when he go in that time, we can go with him for the first day but sad that day i maybe having my attachment:( HOW? HOW? HOW? :(

2 months 21 days......

Now in game room play board game.. Finally project is done.. Now just relax later then go home do a bit cits... Then later at night go tiong there take roster and also to go there find him:) With him around, he will just always by my side encourage me help me to get my confident back whenever i'm tired with it:) its good to have 1 at your side to accompany, encourage you and best is that he won left you alone to face the problem all alone:) He will stay by your side no matter what happen:) He will be the only one who can give you all these:)

Result out liao.. fail so many paper la.. Out of 5 paper, i fail 3 liao:( but giving up is the worst choice, dun give up i must really work very hard... but its not easy at all... to me its quite tough:( now i really dun noe to do:( sometimes study its didn go in then i will be very tired and i will want to stop:( how how how??????

Today is the second day of attachment.. Morning i went to health screening... there is a place where paople came to measure their blood glucose, bp and cholesterol.. at there i finally noe that the normal range for the blood glucose and cholesterol.. if high/or then what can we do to help them... then in the afternoon i went to the dressing room... There is not that dad until i saw something which make me comfirm that no motorcycle is allow in my family member or stead... At there i learn how to clean and apply medcial to the wound...

Today is the first of attachment.. first time go out, so quite nervous and scare:) Then here i go in to hougang polyclinic.. 8 plus go tour around the whole polyclinic then go start work at the MRO... afternoon go start work alone liao:( Then sisiter lee came in to teach me the thing which i need to noe.. From there i learn the different types of mask for the oxygen tank, the meaning of ratio 3:1:2.. which is the meaning of 3 types of medicine... also from there i learn that in year 1 i must make my foundation very strong in order to survive in the next attachment.. so in order to get that i must realy go revice my theroy and others things..

very long didn't update... Very fast going to week 7 liao.. week 7 practical teat week 7 and then week 8 will be our exam week:( Then after that will be attachment of 2 weeks.. but very far hougang poly and elderly care... then will be renci CH and lastly will be at HPB.. but before going out i must pass my practical test:( now is a bit scare.. the TPR still not that strong:(

Finally after so long, I'm going to start study again:) Its will be a brand new starting for me.. Secondary school wasted quite a lot of time liao.. So when reach poly, I'm going to spend time studying everything slowly.. Just hope everyting will goes according to what I had plan..

I wonder why this year de poly admission de letter haven come:( i like waiting for quite a time liao:( hope faster come, some reason is because scare to loss the chance of going to poly again:)

This time round de eng results improve by only 1 grade D7:( Though I started early but maybe still not eonugh ba:( But its lucky that I still can enter poly.. Now I only need to see if i can enter the course or not.. But i hope i can go poly after wasting such a long time doing nth:( Though in between there's lots of happiness and sorrow..

Recently, there's something not that happy had happen:( I really dun noe what to do about it:( I already try my best but seems like it didn done any good to it:( For once I'm tired of myself for can't make thing goes smoothly:(